maybe I’ll be single forever.
- Dan “Soupy” Campbell (The Wonder Years)
While I am enjoying my time spent here, my anxiety and depression is not helping me.. I smile, but inside, I’m crying. I’m finding ways to avoid my feelings, by always being with some girls that will make me laugh.
I wish I was better at not letting other people’s emotions not affect me. I’ll make friends with these guys, they end up liking me (which I don’t know why they would), and then by me being me, I friend-zone them because I don’t know how to be loved. I don’t know how to let a guy in. There is more to me than what meets the eye. People don’t know about my anxiety, my depression, and my past. Not to mention, I’m not so eager to tell them. I have too much baggage for a guy to handle. And that’s what upsets me. I will never be “normal”.
two nights left here. then off to caswell. I am getting so nervous… what if people don’t like me? what if i’m too strange for them? there are so many gorgeous girls there that i can’t even compare to. i don’t feel good enough.
sing me “Unchained Melody” and I will forever be yours.